When one looks at life in the evening of his/her life as just an observer, he/she could find or realise many things. 

Most of us necessarily had to pass through testing situations, challenges, successes, and failures. Today, I look back on my life as a third person, impersonal and with objectivity. When I see them like that, I can very well understand the facts, and some testing questions too arise. Why we did it? Why haven't we taken a better decision or route? Where has our common sense or objectivity gone?

Honestly speaking, I came with no tangible answer. I did it because our brain, emotions, and circumstances made me do so. That alone could be the right and honest answer. 

So, does it not show that our mind, intellect, assessing power, and the values of life keep changing with time and age? Yes. It is. In fact, it still does. 

The other day, I just got stuck into my old diary-like notebook, where I had penned several incidents of my life, like the close friends I moved with, the books I read, the movies I watched with them, the songs I was attracted to, the places I visited etc.etc. These were notes I had made in 1970s, which means nearly 50 plus years ago. Indeed, a very long gap. 

When I read them today, I found many things positively stupid and highly emotional. I am not telling about the books or movies, but about my friends.  

It is on human relationships or friendships, which I considered supreme at that time. To be honest, except one, rest of the friends have almost vanished from my life long back. In those notes, I had mentioned about my very close schoolmate with whom I tried to renew the friendship, but in vain. We stood apart. Whether I understood that or not, he realized it and moved away. 

Same case with college mates too. Except one, most of them have vanished into thin air. I identified one guy on Facebook, sent a friend request to that guy with whom I was close for nearly three years; no response at all. 

I am not blaming or preaching anything that I am great, and others are duds. Life takes everyone through different routes like a train journey. Those who had to get down in a particular place, they do so, move away and forget. 

It is no blame game. It proved only my ultra- sensitivity to my acts and thoughts. 

The best thing for any individual is to be sane, practical, and not too emotional about things happening around us, or people we move with. 

Everything changes with every day. Those friendships and camaraderie are like passing clouds. 

Allow them to pass. Well, whether we allow them or not, they just pass. Wisdom lies in treating everyone, every event, or every relationship with detached attachment. Oxymoron?

Yes. I understood that it is good to be a spectator in most of the cases with little indifference than being an emotional fool.