May 23, 2026
May 23, 2026
How many times had Ruth, the mathematics teacher, read the letter discovered in her student Charitra's notebook? She, too, had a daughter of her own. Would her child also face a similar plight tomorrow? Where does the fundamental flaw lie? Who must bear the responsibility for the rising tide of crimes and atrocities in society? Why are humans degrading morally day by day? Why are parents showing such stark negligence in protecting the children they raise with absolute love and affection? Is the development claimed by governments in the name of progress merely this? Why does society wake up only after atrocities are committed against girls, rather than taking precautions to prevent them from happening in the first place?
Do all those who perpetrate sexual violence think alike? Does the arrogant confidence that children, when threatened into submission, can never reveal the truth to anyone, drive them toward such child abuse? How must one comprehend this escalating violence against young children in society? How can it be stopped? A multitude of such questions deeply perturbed her.
Ruth Madam was not just a mathematics teacher; she was also the class teacher for the ninth grade. All the students in the class adored her immensely. She, too, harbored a profound affection for the children. Alongside the bright students of the class like Viswa, Hima, and Siddharth, she had a special fondness for Charitra.
She had been closely observing Charitra for the past three months. For some reason, Charitra appeared thoroughly dull. The girl, who used to constantly trail behind her shouting "Madam! Madam!", was no longer her usual vibrant self. She always seemed melancholic, looking as though she had lost something precious.
Even during lessons, she would just sit there, deeply lost in some drifting thoughts. When addressed, she would merely look up but offer no response. The other day, when asked to solve a mathematics problem on the board, she came and stood near it but didn't even bother to glance at the board.
"What is this, Charitra?" Ruth had asked. "Sorry, Madam!" she mumbled, immediately walking back to sink into her seat. Once the class concluded, when asked, "What happened, my child? Why are you acting this way?", she simply muttered, "Sorry, Madam," and walked away without giving any answer. For many days, Ruth had been yearning to speak with Charitra in private, but she couldn't find the time amidst the chaotic rush of the quarterly examinations.
She summoned Viswa and instructed her to find Charitra wherever she was and bring her along without fail. Watching Viswa bound away lightheartedly like a young fawn, Ruth was instantly reminded of her own daughter, Jenny, who was studying in the second grade in the very same school.
"Charitra! Charitra! Oh Charitra! How many times must I call out to you? The maths teacher is summoning you to the staff room. What are you doing sitting all by yourself under this tree? Come on, let's go! Madam strictly asked me to bring you along," said Viswa, grabbing her hand. Steering clear of Viswa's gaze, Charitra quietly wiped her eyes and walked along.
By the time the two girls reached Ruth Madam, the Telugu teacher Sunanda, the physical education instructor Krupakar, and the English teacher Vinodini were already seated there. Noticing the children's arrival, the school ayah leaned over and whispered softly into Ruth Madam's ear, "Amma! The children have arrived."
Earlier that morning, Ruth had been deeply perturbed by the chilling details shared by her friend 'Anandi' regarding the rampant sexual abuse of young children in society. Driven by an iron resolve to unearth the underlying reasons behind Charitra's agonizing silence today, she had summoned the girl. Yet, now that the children stood right before her, she felt completely tongue-tied, unsure of how to broach such a delicate matter in front of her colleagues. Gazing at the girls, she merely gestured to them to sit on the bench. Just then, the school bell rang for the next period. Watching the three teachers exit the room, Ruth Madam let out a heavy breath of profound relief.
"Viswa, you head back to class. I will be there in five minutes," Ruth said, dismissing Viswa from the room.
Gently taking both of Charitra’s hands into her own, she asked, "What is the matter, my child? Why are you acting this way? Is there some trouble at home? If there is anything else, please tell me. If it is within my power, I shall certainly try to resolve it."
Charitra stole a fleeting glance at Ruth Madam and, wringing her hands in sheer anxiety, quietly bowed her head in absolute silence.
She was utterly bewildered about what to say and how to say it. Haunted by the terrifying doubt of how Madam would judge her if she revealed the truth, she cast a frantic, bewildered look and mumbled, "It's nothing, Madam. I am perfectly fine."
"No, Charitra! I have been closely observing you for many days now. You are no longer your usual vibrant self. You appear deeply consumed by some profound grief. Is it an ordeal so agonizing that you cannot share it with anyone? If there is a problem, and if you confide in me, I will extend whatever help I can, my child!" Ruth spoke in a gentle, pleading tone filled with immense affection, drawing Charitra closer to instill a sense of absolute trust in her.
At Ruth Teacher’s comforting words, Charitra's eyes welled up with a torrent of tears. "Madam..." she whimpered, desperately trying to unburden her soul, but suddenly froze in terror at the faint sound of approaching footsteps.
The school attender walked in and said, "Madam, the Headmaster is summoning you. Someone has arrived for Charitra. They intend to take her back home."
"Who is it that has arrived? Are they with the Headmaster now? Is it a man or a woman?" Ruth Teacher questioned anxiously.
"It's a gentleman, Madam. He claims to be Charitra's uncle. He has arrived to take her along. The Headmaster has requested Charitra to come to his office as well."
Hearing this, Charitra frantically grabbed Ruth Teacher's hand with her trembling fingers, pulling her back in absolute terror. Ruth Teacher looked at her in sheer astonishment and asked, "Do you know him?"
"Madam, please..! I beg of you, do not send me away with him. I would rather die than step out with that man!"
"He is Sampath Uncle, who lives in the flat right next to ours. I can no longer bear the horrific torture he subjects me to," she wept bitterly, the tears cascading down her face.
"He corners me inside the elevator and touches me inappropriately in places he shouldn't. Whenever I cry out or make a scene, he forcefully shushes me, snarling threats that if I ever dare to confide in anyone, he will mercilessly slaughter my younger sister, my mother, and my father. Be careful, he warns me, Madam. Please, I beg of you, do not send me away with him. Please, Madam."
"Alright, do not be afraid. I am right here with you, aren't I? I will not permit him to take you. First, let us walk over to the Headmaster’s office, come along! Do not panic in the slightest. Erase all thoughts of him from your mind. I shall handle everything," Ruth Teacher assured, firmly holding Charitra’s trembling hand as she guided her toward the HM's room.
Seated right across from the Headmaster’s desk was a man masquerading as a respectable gentleman, draped in pristine khadi attire, sitting arrogantly with one leg crossed over the other.
"Come in, Teacher..! This gentleman has arrived to collect Charitra. Knowing she was under your supervision, I requested her presence here," the HM stated.
Narrowing her eyes, Ruth scrutinized the man seated before the Headmaster and sank into an adjacent chair. Catching a sinister glint of satisfaction that flashed across his eyes the moment he saw Charitra, Ruth fought hard to muzzle her rising fury and maintained a tense silence.
"Headmaster Sir, if you would kindly grant your permission, I shall take our Charitra along. Charitra! Go fetch your school bag from the classroom! Your mother called and requested me to bring you home," the man claimed.
Wrestling to keep her boiling rage under wraps, Ruth Teacher interjected rather fiercely, "Who exactly are you? What relationship do you share with Charitra? If it is truly necessary, Charitra's biological parents will arrive to collect her. Why have you taken this uncalled-for trouble upon yourself? We are strictly forbidden from releasing our school children to unauthorized individuals!"
"Headmaster Sir, while I am formally seeking your permission, who on earth is this woman to step in between and turn me away? Am I some complete stranger without a face or name here? I am a recognized public leader, a politician of the masses! Her family and mine reside in the very same apartment complex. That is precisely why, heading back toward our building, I simply stopped by to collect Charitra. You are more than welcome to make your own inquiries if you wish," he added, throwing his weight around to assert his status and dominance.
Turning his gaze toward Charitra, the Headmaster inquired, "Charitra, my child! Do you know this uncle? He mentions that he resides in your very same apartment complex, is that correct?"
Without offering a single word in response, Charitra merely kept her head bowed down in absolute silence.
Ruth Teacher swiftly intervened, "Sir! We have no true acquaintance with this man. Charitra has absolutely no desire to step out with him. If we summon her biological parents, the underlying reality will unmask itself. Please, let us do just that. If anything unfortunate happens to Charitra, it will bring a terrible stain upon the reputation of our institution as well."
Blinded by fury, the man sprang to his feet, his eyes flashing crimson with rage. "What on earth do you think you are insinuating? You better watch your tongue and talk with some respect! I shall call her parents this very instant. Let them speak of my character," he snarled.
"By all means, Sir, please do call them. Isn't that exactly what I have been demanding? Whatever authority they gave you to collect her will be instantly clarified here. Will you place the call, or shall I?" Ruth retorted, her voice carrying an authoritative edge. Caught off guard by her uncompromising tone, the man beat a hasty retreat. Rising abruptly, he muttered, "Fine, Headmaster Sir, you may call them yourself. Why should I entangle myself in this nuisance? I am receiving another call anyway, something extremely urgent that I must attend to," and pretending to be on a phone call, he swiftly vanished from the premises.
The Headmaster and Ruth Madam exchanged bewildered, stunned glances. "Charitra, you sit right here. I shall attend to my class and return shortly. With the Headmaster's permission, I will accompany you to your house today. I intend to uncover the absolute truth from your parents directly. Sir, I shall head back to my class now," saying this, Ruth Teacher exited the room.
Later, when they arrived at Charitra's residence, the front door was slightly ajar. Muffled voices drifted out from within the house. The very moment Ruth Teacher stepped across the threshold and caught sight of the individual seated comfortably on the sofa, she froze in absolute horror. Charitra, too, stood completely petrified at his sight, looking as though fear had frozen the very blood in her veins.
Catching sight of them, Charitra's mother, Bhargavi, stood up in utter astonishment. "Madam, you have arrived as well? Please come, have a seat," she said, gesturing toward a chair. "He is a distant relative of ours. Moreover, he resides in our very same building. He mentioned he was passing by the school and dropped in to collect our child... he was just narrating what transpired there. He is a close acquaintance of ours. Whenever he visits the school in the future, you may safely release Charitra to his custody. There is absolutely no need for you to harbor any doubts."
Ruth Teacher listened to her words in grim silence, remaining seated. Meanwhile, Charitra retreated into her bedroom and bolted the door from inside. Bhargavi accompanied the man outside to see him off; returning shortly, she said, "This is the first time you have set foot in our home, Madam. Please be comfortable. Let me step into the kitchen and brew some coffee for you," and walked away.
Ruth Teacher immediately approached the room where Charitra had locked herself and knocked gently on the door. Hearing no sound from within, she began knocking more urgently, pleading, "Charitra! He has left, my child! Please come outside. Nothing will happen to you; I am right here. Put your trust in my words and come out! Didn't I travel all the way to your house solely to resolve your ordeal? Please come out, my daughter!" Standing near the threshold, she continuously called out to her with profound maternal warmth, coaxing her like an anxious mother would cradle an infant.
After five agonizing minutes, Charitra finally unlocked the door. Rushing inside, Ruth Teacher scanned the room meticulously. The entire space was in absolute disarray, with clothes and school items scattered everywhere. "Have you completely forgotten what an exceptional student you are? Is this how you maintain your room? If there is a crisis, we must sit down and talk it through. We must never run away from our problems. How can you resort to taking such extreme steps, tell me?" Saying this, she pulled a slip of paper from her pocket and handed it over to Charitra. Charitra gazed at it and was struck with utter disbelief. "Madam, how on earth did this reach your hands?" she whimpered, lowering her head like a guilt-ridden criminal, the tears cascading down her cheeks as she stood frozen.
Drawing Charitra into a comforting embrace, Ruth said, "What is this, Charitra? How could you even contemplate such a horrific, perilous step, my child? Do you even comprehend the gravity of what you were about to commit? Never, ever harbor such foolish, destructive thoughts again. Life is meant to be lived beautifully, not to be cut short abruptly by death.! You must hold on to that truth!."
"But Madam! I pleaded with my mother countless times about Sampath Uncle. Yet, she consistently refused to believe me. Do you know how she reacted the very first time I confided in her that he had inappropriately touched my breast? She harshly scolded me, accusing me of ruining my mind by watching movies. Not only that, she even beat me right in front of my younger sister. She placed far more trust in him than in her own daughter. My father too firmly believes that he is an incredibly noble man, simply because he lent some financial aid for us to purchase this flat.
Even if I were to gather the courage to tell my father, he wouldn't believe me either. That is precisely why I could never bring myself to share any of this with him until now." Entirely unable to suppress the overwhelming surge of grief welling up within her, Charitra buried her face in her hands and wept inconsolably.
Bhargavi, who was just about to enter the room carrying the coffee cups, froze in sheer disbelief as her daughter's agonizing words drifted into her ears. It pierced her heart like a dagger that for all these days, she had callously turned a deaf ear to her own child's desperate cries. As those past instances flashed vividly before her eyes, her heart shattered into a million pieces with a profound, unbearable guilt.
The stark, painful realization that a school teacher possessed absolute faith in her student, while she—the biological mother—lacked that very trust in her own flesh and blood, pierced her soul. Bhargavi broke out into cold sweats as a wave of intense grief completely submerged her. What was the use of weeping now, after having completely neglected and ignored the immense trauma her daughter had been enduring for months? She remembered how, on a previous occasion when her husband had harbored a passing suspicion about Sampath, she herself had fiercely intercepted and defended the man, brushing aside the doubts. Today, reflecting on how deceitfully Sampath had walked into her home just hours ago trying to trick her into releasing the child, she was gripped by a wild, unstoppable rage and a deep sense of revulsion toward him.
"I am so sorry, Madam!" Bhargavi cried out, tears streaming down her face. "No matter how many times my daughter spoke of his vile actions, I genuinely refused to believe her. I foolishly dismissed it as the mere rambling of a young child; I completely failed to unmask his monstrous, wicked nature. I am deeply ashamed of my own sheer stupidity. If my husband catches wind of this matter now, he might resort to extreme violence against Sampath. The man, after all, wields immense political clout and influence. He even has a daughter of his own, one who is older than my child! I could never, even in my wildest nightmares, imagine that such a despicable beast was hiding behind his respectable facade. If you hadn't arrived today, my blinded eyes would have never opened to this horrific truth. Likewise...
...If I had remained oblivious, God knows what would have become of my child!" Swept over by a torrential wave of grief, her voice choked up, rendering her momentarily speechless. Wiping her eyes amidst her tears, she pleaded, "Please advise us on how to resolve this crisis, Madam!"
Ruth Teacher gently led Charitra into the living room and had her sit down. Bhargavi put away the cold coffee in the kitchen, brewed a fresh pot, and sat across from them, handing cups to both the teacher and her daughter.
Just then, the calling bell rang. Bhargavi opened the door to find her husband and her younger daughter, Bhavya, standing outside. Letting them inside, she bolted the door and returned to sit beside Ruth Teacher.
Sensing the tense, heavy atmosphere in the house and noticing his daughter's class teacher present, Anand Rao inquired in utter astonishment and anxiety, "What happened, Madam? What brings you to our home like this? Did Charitra commit some misdemeanor at school?"
Catching sight of her father, Charitra quickly wiped away her tears. Bhavya, completely oblivious to the gravity of the situation, slung her school bag off her shoulder and walked into her room, carrying it in one hand.
Bhargavi drew her husband inside and recounted every single detail of what had transpired. Hearing his wife's words, Anand Rao trembled with visceral rage and became extremely agitated. His blood boiled at Sampath's predatory behavior toward his young daughter. The parents then approached Ruth Teacher and Charitra, sinking into chairs as they wiped their eyes. After a heavy minute of silence, they looked toward Ruth Teacher and folded their hands in deep reverence. "Madam, we can never repay this profound debt of gratitude," they said in unison.
"Mr. Anand Rao, I wish to convey something with absolute clarity to both you and Bhargavi," Ruth Teacher addressed them firmly. "Showering affection upon your children is simply not enough. As parents, you must instill courage in them and teach them how to grow up independently. As vital as academic education is, it is equally crucial to create a strong awareness in children regarding the harsh realities of society. They must be equipped with the strength to confront any adversity that crosses their path. When children muster the courage to bring an incident to your notice, do not react with misplaced fury; instead, embrace them with unconditional love, listen patiently, and make them understand. When you continuously penalize and discourage the children themselves, look at the consequences—it drives them to this extreme state!" Saying this, she gestured toward the letter held in her hand...
...and handed it over to them. It was a photocopied replica of the 'Suicide Note' written by Charitra. "Ponder over this deeply and arrive at your own decision," Ruth Teacher remarked as she walked out of the house.
Dear Amma, Nanna!
Please forgive me. I know that by the time you read this letter, I will no longer be around with you. I pleaded with you countless times about Sampath Uncle. Yet, you never valued my words. You summarily dismissed everything I said as mere fabrications. I can no longer endure the torment of Uncle constantly placing his hands on my private parts and violating me. Shall I tell you the absolute truth, Nanna..? I feel petrified even to sit right beside you now. Every single day, Uncle stands waiting near the elevator, lurking for the moment I arrive. One day, the power failed, and the lift ground to a halt right in the middle. That day... that day, Uncle stripped off my school frock... he stripped it off... Amma! How on earth do I make you believe me? I simply do not comprehend how to put it into words.
Ever since that horrific incident transpired, I have been utterly unable to concentrate on my lessons in class. I do not even know whether I will manage to pass my examinations anymore! This suffocating depression within me will not let me rest at peace in any single place.
Amma! That monstrous brute threatened that if I didn't submit to him, he wouldn't spare Bhavya either. My younger sister is far more innocent than I am. I tremble with terror thinking about what he might inflict upon her alongside me. I am dying a thousand deaths out of fear every single day due to the barbaric torture he subjects me to. It feels as though ending my life once and for all is infinitely better than enduring this daily death. But it hurts me deeply that you... and Nanna always choose to champion and support him. I only hope that through my death, you will finally bring yourselves to believe me... Goodbye, Amma!
Please look after "Bhavya" with absolute vigilance so that she never falls prey to that wicked predator. Do not harbor any rage against me. Likewise, please do not weep for me. I have firmly resolved to leap to my death from our apartment terrace one of these days.
In truth, Amma, I have absolutely no desire to die! But let me tell you one thing. Amma! You are the one who lectures us on everything regarding 'Good Touch and Bad Touch,' yet when such agonizing misery befell us...
...why didn't you teach us how to confront those miseries when they crossed our path? If only you had understood me and valued the realities I shared, how beautiful life would have been, Amma! Please ensure that my younger sister never falls prey to predators like that Uncle anymore. That alone is more than enough for me... Goodbye Amma.! Goodbye Nanna!"
Upon reading the letter, both husband and wife drew Charitra close into their arms, wiping away her cascading tears as they wrapped her in a deeply reassuring, protective embrace.
The moment Ruth entered the classroom, her eyes instinctively searched for Charitra. She spotted her sitting on the very last bench. "Charitra, my child, please move forward and sit on the front bench!" Ruth Teacher called out gently. Charitra walked down silently and took her seat right next to Viswa on the front row. Today, Ruth Teacher could no longer see even a shadow of yesterday's fragile helplessness or terror in Charitra. Instead, a striking sense of composed resilience and newfound courage shone brilliantly within the girl.
The visages of Charitra's parents flashed across her mind. Just as her friend Anandi had remarked, she realized that it is primarily the parents of both young boys and girls who desperately require conditioning and counseling regarding such social atrocities. This profound realization completely overwhelmed her thoughts. Driven by a vision that had crystallized at that very moment, she stepped out and marched gracefully toward the Headmaster’s office.
In the distance, a flock of crows perched upon a neem tree suddenly flapped their wings and broke into a chaotic, clamorous chorus of caws. Vijju, Charitra, and Viswa looked at one another and burst into their usual joyous, lighthearted laughter. Exactly at that instant, the school attender ringing the final bell of the day with a resounding 'gana-gana' chime felt beautifully coincidental.!
23-May-2026
More by : Vijaya Bhandaru
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Thankyou publishing my short story suicide note |