Aug 07, 2026
Aug 07, 2026
The floodlights above King Fahd Road burned the colour of bleached bone, and Riyadh spread below them like a geometry problem with no elegant solution—every line meeting at right angles, every surface the same shade of sand and glass. Irfan Ahmed stood at the window of his third-floor flat in Al Malaz, a small cup of gahwa growing cold between his palms, and watched the city, a man watching an equation he has been solving for twenty-five years without once putting down his pencil.
Below, a Sudanese driver polished the bonnet of a Land Cruiser. The azaan from the neighbourhood mosque unravelled into the dusk. Somewhere behind Irfan, on the small shelf above his single cot, a framed photograph of Ameena and the boys sat at a slight angle he had never corrected—Saif and Rizwan perhaps eight and six in the picture, their grins wide as open brackets.
Twenty-five years. The number sat in his chest like a constant he could not simplify further.
He had come to Riyadh at thirty-five. A mathematics teacher from a reputed private school in Nampally, with chalk dust under his nails and a contract from a Saudi secondary school that promised six times his Indian salary. Ameena had packed his suitcase the night before the flight, each shirt folded with the care of a woman folding a dua into a cloth—precise, deliberate, silent. At Shamshabad airport the boys had clung to his trousers and he had peeled their fingers off one by one, like pulling staples from a document he could not bring himself to read.
The first year was the hardest. His flat had one window that faced a car park. He taught trigonometry and calculus to boys who called him “Sir” to his face and “Hindee” behind his back. The staffroom held twenty expatriates from nine countries, all of them performing the same quiet arithmetic—subtract homesickness, add patience, solve for the monthly transfer to a bank account four thousand kilometres south-east.
Hassan from Amman occupied the desk beside him. A geography teacher with a moustache the colour of iron filings and a laugh that sounded like furniture being moved in the flat above. They drank gahwa together most evenings after salah at a café adjacent to the school, the cardamom sharp on the tongue and the silence between sentences comfortable as old leather.
“You ever think about going back—I mean, for good?” Hassan asked one evening. The café television was showing a football match neither of them cared about.
“Every day,” Irfan said. “Then I open the banking app and the thought corrects itself.”
Hassan nodded. They both understood the formula. Longing divided by necessity equals endurance.
~*~
The summer holidays were the proof that the formula worked. Two months every year, Irfan stepped off the plane at Rajiv Gandhi International and the boys hit him like a wave. As they grew taller the wave changed shape but not force. Ameena stood behind them each time, hands folded, her smile a thin bright line—a woman who had learned to hold her joy at a certain angle so it did not spill into something that might make the parting worse.
Those summers had a quality of compressed life. He taught Saif long division on the veranda while pigeons sat on the water tank above. He walked Rizwan to Mecca Masjid for Jummah Namaz and they ate biryani at Shah Ghouse afterwards, the rice still warm in its foil. He sat beside Ameena and counted the days in his head like a man counting the terms of a finite series—always aware of the last term approaching.
Then the taxi, the airport, the boys at the gate growing smaller in the rearview mirror of his memory.
For twenty-five years, this was the rhythm. A function with two domains—Riyadh and Hyderabad—and a narrow bridge of phone calls between them.
~*~
The summer Saif turned seventeen, the family sat around the dining table in their Barkas flat and the future entered the room like a new variable.
“Baba, I want to study medicine.” Saif spoke as he did everything—direct, no cushion, no throat-clearing. “Russia. There’s a programme. Two of my seniors are already there.”
Irfan put his spoon down. The biryani on his plate was still half-finished. He looked at Ameena. She gave him a small nod, barely a degree of motion—the kind of signal that twenty years of marriage compresses into nearly nothing.
“Insha’Allah,” Irfan said. “Tell me about the programme.”
Rizwan, fifteen then, leaned forward on his elbows. “I’ve been thinking too, Baba. Germany. Engineering. They don’t charge tuition at the public universities. Two of my seniors too are already there.”
“They don’t charge tuition,” Irfan repeated. The sentence sounded like a proof too good to be true—and in mathematics, when something seemed too simple, you checked your assumptions. “What about living costs? Books? Flights?”
“We’ll manage, Baba. Won’t we?”
Irfan looked at his two boys—one with his jaw set like a theorem he intended to prove, the other with that open eager face that reminded Irfan of Ameena at twenty. He thought of his Al Malaz flat, the single cot, the years stacked behind him like exercise books in a cupboard. He thought of the years still ahead in that flat. More years. The same equation, solved for a larger sum.
“We’ll manage,” he said.
~*~
They managed. The way a man manages to carry a steel almirah up four flights of stairs—one step at a time, no room for hesitation, the neck remembering a weight it never asked for.
The fees for Russia and Germany—tuition, rent, food, everything—consumed it all. What had once been a careful monthly remittance—enough for the Barkas flat, for the household, for the occasional piece of jewellery at Pathar Gatti—became a splitting of the stream into three channels, each too narrow, each always nearly dry. Irfan ate lunch at the school canteen because cooking alone cost money. He wore his shirts until the collars softened to the texture of old newsprint. He stopped sending money for Ameena’s wardrobe and she did not mention it, not once, not in five years.
The supermarket on Olaya Street became a small theatre of daily indignity. Arab customers mistook him for staff. A woman once held out her shopping bag for him to carry. A teenager asked him in broken English to fetch something from the top shelf and walked away without thanks, as though Irfan were a mechanism—useful, invisible, requiring no acknowledgement.
He said nothing. He was an expatriate. The word itself contained the answer—ex patria, outside the fatherland. A man outside his own country was a remainder after long division, present but unclaimed.
At school the students still called him sir. He taught quadratic equations with the same energy he had brought twenty years ago—hands drawing parabolas across the whiteboard, voice rising at the crux of a proof, eyes scanning for the one student who had not yet understood. His reputation was small and solid. The students who paid attention learned well. That was enough. It had to be.
~*~
The phone call came on the weekend—Friday night.
“Baba!” Saif’s voice crackled through WhatsApp, pitched high, the sound of a man who had been holding his breath for five years and had just let it out. “I’m done. I’ve graduated. Alhamdulillah, Baba, I’m a doctor.”
Irfan closed his eyes. The Al Malaz flat was dark except for the phone screen and the thin line of streetlight under the curtain. “Mubarak ho, beta. Mubarak.” His voice broke on the second word and he did not try to repair it.
Ten minutes later, Rizwan joined the call from Hanover. “I can’t let bhai take all the glory. I’m done too. Distinction.”
“Masha’Allah.” Irfan whispered it. The word came from somewhere below the chest, from whatever part of a man stores the accumulated weight of canteen lunches and worn collars and silent supermarket aisles.
After the call he stood at the window. Riyadh blinked beneath him—amber and white, indifferent, beautiful like mathematics, all structure and no warmth. He pressed his forehead to the glass the way a man presses his forehead to the ground in sajda—a small surrender to what had been accomplished and what it had cost.
~*~
Retirement came at sixty with the abruptness of a cancelled subscription.
No ceremony. No farewell. The school issued a clearance letter, shook his hand once in the administration office, and directed him to the exit. Twenty-five years of service fit into a single A4 page with a signature and a stamp. Hassan—retired two years earlier—sent a voice note from Amman. “Welcome to the other side, habibi. It’s quiet here.”
Irfan flew home with two suitcases, a pain in both knees that flared on the jet bridge, and a bank balance he had stopped opening on his phone—the figure already lodged in him, familiar and immovable as a stone carried too long.
~*~
The Barkas flat was the same. The water stain on the ceiling above the kitchen had grown by two inches. The Quran on the shelf above the television wore a velvet cover Ameena had stitched during one of the winters without him. She stood at the door and he stood in the doorway and they looked at each other, faces soft with the relief of distance finally collapsed and neither remembered quite how to stand this close.
“Salam, Ameena.”
“Wa alaikum assalam.” She touched his face. Her fingers were cool. She did not say anything else. The whole sentence was in the hand on his cheek.
The first month was rest. The second was restlessness. By the sixth, the arithmetic of their situation became visible like bones through thin cloth.
Saif was a duty doctor at a corporate hospital across the city—married now, a new flat in Kondapur, a new life that orbited a different centre. Rizwan was in Tasmania, working for a construction company, his voice appearing on WhatsApp at odd hours, always cheerful, always brief. Saif rang on Fridays when he could, though sometimes the call came after a double shift, his voice flattened with exhaustion, and Irfan would say only so ja, beta—rest, there is nothing here that can’t wait. Rizwan once mentioned the rent in Hobart, a figure that made Irfan wince into the phone, and then changed the subject with the practised ease of a young man who had learnt not to complain to the father who taught him not to. Neither sent money. Not from cruelty—from the simple mathematics of young men with entry-level salaries and expanding lives of their own.
Irfan took a lecturing position at a private degree college in Khairatabad. The salary was a tenth of what Riyadh had paid. The commute was fifty minutes each way on a bus that shuddered like something barely holding together. He stood for five hours a day in front of students who looked at their phones under the desks like he had once looked at the Al Malaz window—somewhere else, enduring.
His knees failed first. Then his lower back. He lasted one month as a lecturer.
~*~
He sat at the kitchen table after the morning prayer, palms flat on the Formica, and said nothing. The ceiling fan turned above him—katak, katak, katak—like a clock that had stopped measuring useful time. Ameena placed a cup of chai beside his hand and sat across from him.
“I have an idea,” she said. Quiet. No drama—just a person placing a single domino at the head of a long line.
He looked up.
“My bangles. The gold ones. Sell them. Buy a proper laptop. Teach from this table.”
“Ameena—those are your mahr-e-muajjal.” The word came out low, almost a warning. His jaw tightened. “It isn’t just jewellery. It’s your right by law. Taking it back would be an admission that I couldn’t buy even a laptop without stripping away your last safety.” He held her gaze. “No, Ameena. That I will not do.”
“They’ve been in the locker for thirty years doing nothing. You are the asset, not the gold.”
“It is yours before Allah.”
“And I will spend what is mine as I choose. Or does my right only hold when you approve of its use?”
The silence sat between them. He pressed his palms flat against the Formica and breathed once—a long ragged breath, the breath of a man whose pride is being asked to step aside from a doorway it has guarded for thirty years.
“I will replace every gram.” His voice was low, formal—the register of a vow. “Before I buy myself a single shirt, Ameena. Every gram. You have my word for it.”
She met his eyes. “Then you have my gold.”
He opened his mouth. Closed it. “But, who’ll pay to learn maths from a retired man in Barkas?”
“The whole world will.” She pulled her phone from her dupatta fold and held it up like a lantern. “Udemy. Coursera. YouTube. People are teaching from bedrooms and earning in dollars. You’ve stood in front of students for thirty years. You’re better than all of them, and you know it.”
He stared at the phone as though she had shown him a door in a wall he had believed to be solid brick.
~*~
The bangles went to Motilal Jewellers in Pathar Gatti that afternoon. Ameena walked in with the velvet pouch and walked out with a sum that became, the next day, a laptop with a good webcam and a ring light clamped to the dining table. Irfan watched her set up the laptop and felt the vow settle into his ribs like a second spine—quiet, load-bearing, permanent.
She filmed him doing a trial lesson on differential equations—twenty minutes, chalk replaced by a stylus, the same voice, the same hands drawing curves in the air like a man shaping something invisible into something real.
“Lean closer. Slower. Your English is fine but the students in smaller cities won’t keep up at that speed.”
“Since when are you a media expert?”
“While you were in Riyadh I wasn’t sitting idle, Irfan.” A small sharp smile. “I kept up with the world. Someone in this house had to.”
She built a website—Merit Mathematics Masterclasses. M3 for short. She created accounts on every platform. She posted clips. She scheduled content using an application she had found during a late-night scroll through YouTube tutorials. She did all of this from the same kitchen table where she had fed two boys for seventeen years, and she did it with the quiet competence of a woman who had always known she was capable and had simply never been asked.
Irfan recorded his courses for executives. Mathematics for Quantitative Finance, Number Theory, Cryptography, Machine Learning—dense, precise, elegant. For school and college students he built a separate series in Urdu and Hindi, his voice dropping into the softer register of his mother tongue, the explanations unwinding with the patience of a man who had spent three decades watching confusion turn into light on a student’s face.
The reviews came first. Then the enrolments. Then the money.
Within six months, M3 had a waitlist. A student in Bengaluru built a mobile app as a gift—downloaded a thousand times on its first day, five thousand times the following day, one lakh times in a month. They started calling him the Khan Sir of Hyderabad on student forums, and he laughed when Ameena showed him, a soft embarrassed laugh, the laugh of a man who had forgotten that strangers could admire him.
~*~
On a Friday evening after Maghrib, Irfan and Ameena sat on the narrow roof of the Barkas flat. The sky over the Old City held that last amber light before it drops into indigo—the minarets dark against the glow, an auto-rickshaw coughing down the lane below, a boy on a bicycle carrying a stack of naan balanced on his head.
“I want to buy you new bangles,” Irfan said. “I gave you my word, Ameena.”
“No.”
“No?”
“The old ones became something better. They became this.” She gestured at the city below them, at the flat, at the table inside where the laptop sat with its small green light still blinking. “Like you. You became something better.”
He did not answer for a while. Below, men in white kurtas walked toward the masjid for Isha. A pigeon rested on a television aerial, its feathers ruffling softly in the evening breeze.
“I spent twenty-five years solving for the wrong variable,” he said. “All those riyals. That distance. I thought the answer was out there. In Riyadh. In sand and glass. It was here, Ameena. This table. This flat. You were the constant. Everything else was just a variable I kept optimising.”
She took his hand. Her fingers were bare—no gold, no ornament—and they were warm.
“My sartaj. You weren’t solving for the wrong thing. You were solving for the boys, and the proof worked. They’re a doctor and an engineer. That’s your theorem. Nobody can take it.”
“And the remainder?”
She leaned against his shoulder. “The remainder is ours. Alhamdulillah. The remainder is ours.”
The azaan for Isha began—long, unhurried, spreading over the rooftops the way a theorem spreads once you accept the first axiom. Inevitable. Each phrase following the last.
Irfan sat still. His knees ached. His back held a memory of every classroom from Nampally to Al Malaz to Khairatabad. But his wife was beside him now, and that made all the difference. Downstairs, ten teenagers, logged in from America to Europe to Australia, were waiting for his lesson on limits approaching infinity. In the dark, the green light on the laptop blinked on and on like a signal from a minaret—small, steady, calling to young minds eager to learn how numbers behave as they stretch toward infinity.
He pressed his thumb against the back of Ameena’s hand. Once. Gently. The way a man signs a proof he has finally, after all the years, completed.
Then they rose, together, and went downstairs—to pray, to share, to care.
08-Aug-2026
More by : Prof. Rajeshwar Mittapalli