Mom. Fondly remembered and greatly missed.

Kapil Bamba

It’s been exactly one year now since God took dear mom from us. Very unfair on His part. Still seems like a nightmare, but alas, this one got real. One little infection and suddenly things began crashing. Couple of painful days and sleepless nights and everything changed forever. One year and we all can still feel her with us. Around us. We miss every little thing about her. An epitome of love, warmth, care. A teacher. A corrector and above all, a very loving mom. Maa. Mum. Mummy.

Every evening that I would come home, I would be shouting a hello. Loud. And hug her. She was always there. With a loving welcoming smile. Even though when she was confined to the wheel chair. Even when she was dazed after the painful dialysis sessions. Even if she was very unwell. She was always there. For me. For us. The loud hello still echoes as I enter but the smiling one is gone. Void felt. Hugs Missed. Terribly.

I have no complaints with God. Maybe that was an end to her sufferings. But the only thing I have for Him is, “Thora time aur ruk jaate. Thori baatein aur karne dete.”

The only solace is, we cannot see her, but I am sure she can. She cannot talk to us, but we can. And I do. Whether it’s a new project or a big problem solved. I keep talking to her. Lessens the pain. We can feel the aura. I just know she is around. But there are many doubts and queries in life that only she could answer. From simple ones like “what gift should we give them” to complex ones like “mom, what should I do in this situation”, there are moments in life only a mother can pull you out from.

Today I would just like to tell her, mom, wherever you are now, you will always be fondly remembered and greately greately missed. Forever.

Love you maa. And miss you lots.

06-Apr-2011

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Very emotional article

Taruna
02-Feb-2020 22:11 PM

Only someone who has lost someone close can understand and empathise with this.

kapilbamba
01-Feb-2020 10:10 AM

Remembering parents is becoming conscious of the blessed fact that "I" am alive and kicking. Amen.

Raj
01-Feb-2020 08:01 AM

Kapil, I had tears flowing from my eyes reading this article Excellent write-up. Each word in this article I could relate to. I lost my mom at a very young age and the pain of that loss does not fade even now. We realize the intensity and depth of relationships in the absence of it. Mom, she is the personification of love. Nothing can match with her sacrifices, love and affection. I feel my mom is still looking at me from her higher echelons and blessing me. Still I wish if she was around me forever , even though I know it cannot happen.

pankajam
18-Mar-2015 00:49 AM

Really touching.

Vikram
17-May-2011 04:04 AM

Wow Kapil. One thing is for sure, this tragic event has still provided a blessing in your life to be able to share what you mother meant to you in such a clear and vivid way.

All the best to you and your family. I can see that your Mom did a good job with you.

Best,

Alex

Alex Codio
09-Apr-2011 14:48 PM

Kapil,

Your write-up brought tears to my eyes.

It has been years since my mom passed away and now I am a grandmother, but I still miss her and think of her everyday. Mom's are just that way.

All the best to you.

Shernaz
08-Apr-2011 11:57 AM

Kapil, you have beautifully expressed your feelings. A memory is a sibilant thing....softly it echoes.

My prayers and good wishes for you -- keep your maa's memory alive and write when the heart becomes full.

Best regards,
Shaheen Sultan Dhanji
Boloji writer

Shaheen Sultan Dhanji
07-Apr-2011 18:40 PM

Adi just said to me -"You are the best mama,u make the best food "while i was reading this blog,tears welling down my eyes.
You made me feel how much a son misses and loves his mom after she's gone. No one can fill that void but we can console ourselves by feeling that she is watching us and smiling to see us happy and prosper,God will bless you all for all that you have done for her .She is definately around you watching you all Forever.
Take care, will see you soon!

Nandita
07-Apr-2011 15:00 PM

Very true and then " its Mom who can hear unspoken pains of her child , who can see unseen problems of her child , who understands what we want when never asked for it . Because she is Maa who God has sent on this earth for us in His place . We need her around us everyday , every second of our life . " Now she is with God . Wish she was always around .
Take care Kapil .

Neetu Saini
06-Apr-2011 21:02 PM