Uncertainties and Realities As we lay arms and legs entwined.... the contrast of skin complexion is vivid, but it's hard to determine where I end, and you begin. We are one when lying thus, staring into each other's eyes, into each other souls. We connect, compliment, and complete each other. I have given myself to you, totally, completely.... in the knowledge that you will take care with my heart....and with my soul.
You have become a vital component of the essence of my being. When we are together, I feel as I have never felt before, will ever again with anyone else. I long for you to give yourself freely, completely, to release these feelings that you try so hard to restrain, and I long for you to share all of yourself with me. You withhold from me the gift that would sustain me, fortify me, which would nurture the emotions we feel.... or at least the love that I feel for you, unconditionally. Though I understand your reluctance ....because like the ominous skies before a storm, it hangs over us, making time spent together bittersweet. It cowers in the corners of our minds,
This uncertainty, this pain, this reality. So jokingly we refer to our futures, that we will share with each other, although probably only in conversations as friends. And it hurts to think of the time when this horrible reality will come to pass and we will have to live with just memories. But I will have those memories to comfort me, to cling to, to warm me, when the nights are too dark and the wind is too cold. For the love we shared will warm my nights, my heart, and my soul.... and bring a smile to the lips that you once kissed.... so sweetly....so tenderly ....with such love.