This the first dream, know I’m asleep but don’t
want to, I try to wake up but cannot move.
Injured by panic I try to move but my body will not
obey me, immobile trapped in my body.
Open your eyes, try roll onto the floor, grasp, try
touching the wall, there is no wall, space is intense.
Finally I get up, walk into the living room, but sleep
Is like a boa constrictor around my neck.
I fall and fall through the endless universe, fly too
but not to where I want to go.
Pain has awoken me, I see light, it is dawn and
walk on to the terrace, another narrow survival.
Over the ridge I spy the sun, my only true lover
and I sing a tune from a Gary Cooper movie: “Do not
forsake me, O my darling…”