Mixed Emotions

by Rupradha Mookerjee

Just one week in between and then I’ll see you,
You won’t even know what I’ve been through,
But mixed emotions are hovering in my mind,
As the last few months fate has been so unkind.

I don’t know whether to forget all the pain,
Or avoid you like you did every now and then,
Should I be happy that finally you have come,
Or be scared that you’ll make me lonesome!

I am afraid, you’ll mock at my love once again,
My efforts to be peaceful and happy will be in vain,
After so many months of silence will you talk to me?
Will you release me from the agony and set me free?

Should I tell you how much you’ve made me suffer?
Or should I keep quiet thinking, well, it made me tougher?
I am confused how to face you in front of everybody,
What if I can’t help crying when you treat me like nobody?

Still the thrill of seeing you is winning over everything,
As feelings are gushing through every ounce of my being,
Heart is beating faster, voice getting choked, lips dried,
Just for a glimpse of you, do you know how much I’ve cried?

12-Oct-2012

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Comments on this Poem

thank you so much Nathmal ji

Rupradha
18-Nov-2013 14:43 PM

Emotions of love are awfully depicted here ! Nice creation.Thank you.

Nathmal Sharma
07-May-2013 09:10 AM

thank you so much Kulbir Ji..

rupradhamookerjee
15-Oct-2012 13:54 PM

Deep, deep emotions oozing with intensity!

Kulbir
14-Oct-2012 21:15 PM

awesome lines Raj Ji!! thanks a lot!!

Rupradha
14-Oct-2012 03:08 AM

Thank you very much for reviewing my poems and appreciating all the time!!You know Bengali very well KumarJi..

Rupradha
14-Oct-2012 03:07 AM

you made my day..thank you so much Aparna Mam!!

Rupradha
14-Oct-2012 03:05 AM

Sayeen Bin Darad Karejae Hoye - Kabir
http://www.boloji.com/index.cfm?md=Content&sd=SongDetails&SongID=8&Counter=3

Raj
13-Oct-2012 22:37 PM

Congrats! Rupradha. The concluding two lines sum up the whole thing. I shall not call you 'Birahini, but instead 'premabhilasini'. Love to you.

Kumarendra Mallick
13-Oct-2012 22:27 PM

Dhadak Raha Hai Dil
Dil Ko Main Kaise
Samjhaun...
Tujhse Milun Ya
Mile Bin Yahan Se
Chala Jaun...
Aisa Na Ho
Tu Yeh Dil Tode
Zamana Hanse Saara

Beautiful lyrics of a beautiful song which expresses the ambivalence of your pensive poem.

Mere Dil Ne Tadap Ke

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ert08cr9CM

Hope your meeting goes well :-)

Best Wishes,
: Aparna :

alwaysaparna
13-Oct-2012 16:49 PM

Aparna Mam, I never thought you would like this poem..thank you so much..

Rupradha
13-Oct-2012 13:25 PM

Kingshuk ji, I am glad you like it..thanks a lot!

rupradhamookerjee
13-Oct-2012 13:20 PM

Jai ji, I feel very happy to receive your comments as I am a fan of your poems..Thanks a bunch..

rupradhamookerjee
13-Oct-2012 13:19 PM

Ramesh ji, I am touched by your appreciation..thanks a ton..

rupradhamookerjee
13-Oct-2012 13:17 PM

Beautiful.............Touching.......!!

Kingshuk
13-Oct-2012 09:06 AM

Your writings are always very intense! Last two lines appear so familiar..

jai
13-Oct-2012 06:02 AM

Rupradha, one of the best poem, I have read in recent times. Beautiful flow from the heart.Congrats!

Ramesh Anand
13-Oct-2012 02:33 AM