Just too much pain to bear Stub it, stub it out Starve it till it bleeds to death These passions are my demons'
Last night I cried in my lover's arms Each cell in my body had waited For that one phone call None except my heart knew of - The call from - Her
But it did not come.
So I cried and cried in my woman's arms - Not knowing my angst, she asked Why are you crying so much? Has someone said something to you?
I shook my head -
How can I tell her? How hard it is to bear This silence? How can I tell her? I did not cry because Someone said something But, because Someone I wanted to hear from Did not say anything? I cried because she was so silent.
Does it take so long to process pain? So much denial! Whom could I hold and cry uncontrollably with? The safety of unquestioned tears Are not always present.
My cells have finally dried out. Just too much pain to bear I tried to stub it, stub it out completely I fasted for days on end - Food, they say, excite the mind These passions left me only for those days They are my demons'here to stay.
Silence frightens me more than words They hide emotions I cannot address Therefore I weep nestled at my lady's breasts She does not question my tears Just gives me the space to cry ' for Her.